We are now till 29th of may in the eleventh moon phase. 28 days to use for letting go and dissolve old habit patterns and structures hindering us in our freedom to grow towards whatever we deeply wish for. The intention for this phase is: Release, Liberate, Dissolve!
What do you wish to release?
Sometimes it is hard to pinpoint the itchy sting inside of us..... but still it's worth while trying!
Regarding myself I feel a great need to let go of some old resistance patterns buried deep inside myself hindering my wish for growth in my job.
In the last three years I created with all my knowledge an indeed beautiful working life. I have a great job I love because it fulfils me on all my levels of being.
I started out studying art and workt as painter ( the painting on the article about the significance of the moon calendar is one example of my work ). I did OK, had quite some chances, expositions and scholarships. After 10 years it didn't satisfied me anymore. Though I did successfully the job of my dreams I felt a lot of resistance I could cope with any longer. So I made a career change choosing yoga as my new technique.
In both lines of work my whish for living and sharing ultimate creative freedom and adventure is the deepest yearning / motivation. So the intention stayed the same only the technique changed...
I am now at a point in my career as a yoga teacher where I have build a harmonious fundament on the inner and outer level. I created a nurturing daily routine with a good income, a whole lot of freedom and obligations I freely and totally agree with. All of my commitments are chosen, deeply satisfying and in balance regarding the reward of my investment of time and energy.
But crazy enough there is still a little voice in me whispering: I don't want to. The resisting part!
So speaking of old habit patterns.... this is for sure one!
Reading this perhaps helps to give you an idea of your own entrapped energy.
This deep 'shadow personalities' we create in the first seven years of our life because of resentment. There is always something (till we are all enlightened!) our parents or other authorities like to change in the nature of the child. In order to function and be assured of love and care we have no other option than burying alive the part of ourselves which is not wanted and create a 'strategy-me' for serving our needs for love and care.
The problem is that by the time we are in no more need of the strategy-me we have totally forgotten about the 'deal' we made. The strategy-me is by than such a deep old habit we unconsciously adopted it as our own genuine behavior and we don't have a clue about the cast away treasure of natural energy!
Only the itchy saboteur in our head and actions, who persistently works against our efforts and good intentions reminds us of a conflict, a warzone, somewhere inside of us.
This saboteur is the buried energy that needs to be reinforced by conscious acknowlegdement and healing.
Suggestion for healing:
The first step towards healing is a step towards our inner child. We need to level our communication to where ever we can reach this part of our psyche. You could meditate in a position or place you liked as a child for example. After finding the right communication we have to listen and open up to the pain of this cast away personality of ourselves. Now we have to make sure that both parts of our psyche understand that the strategy-me is no longer needed by making a 'magical' choise. A ritual is the way to connect all the
parts of yourself in the now and create an action towards a new beginning in a style all parts can comprehend. Through the ritual you can let go of the strategy-me without making it a pure mental decision which inner child won't grasp.
Further I would like to advise you doing a ritual to rebirth the genuine 'buried alive' me.
Last but not least please use some playfulness so your inner child gets a treat and the decision you made becomes a happy, easy one!
Peace and love,
Anne
